Frustrated...

Our topic in Psychology class was waaay in line with what I'm feeling lately.
FRUSTRATION.
Lately,
I've been frustrated with myself...
and a lot of other things that I wasn't able to do.
I'm a frustrated-everything.
When I was young,
I made a list of what I wanted to do or have finished
By the time I'm sixteen.
And so far...
I haven't done even half of the list!
Arrghh...
I don't know,
I just feel so disapointed with myself.

I feel that I should be somewhere else...
Doing something else.
Anything but this.
I never thought of myself in this kind of situation.

It's like I have this voice inside my head, saying:
"LOSER LOSER LOSER...."

THIS IS SO FUCKING FRUSTRATING!
I'M A FRUSTRATED-EVERYTHING!!!

(pauses to dwell in my misery)

Hohum... I need to take a break.
I'm so stressed from all the crap that has been happening to me.

I so want to get this sem over with...
And start my r&r...

And I just wanna say...
I still love you...
And I think I always will...
I will love you without regret...
Even if you don't love me back.