Empty...

For the past few weeks,
I've been trying my best to be happy...
I've been putting a smile on my face every single day.
Even if I feel like crawling into a hole and cry my eyes out.
I wanna get mad...
I wanna cry.
But I can't.
I have to stay put and don't show any feeling.
I have to look nonchalant...
Even if my heart is breaking...

...

Someone new wants to come in.
But I'm begging for the old one to stay.
I like the new one...
I enjoy his company.
But I don't think anyone can surpass my feelings for the old one.
Haaaayyy...
Now I can honestly say that I can't really have what I want.

...

Beda won again today!
The score was 51-55...
I had one helluva good time.
I don't usually watch basketball...
but it was required,
so I figure I go to the game...
I paid a hundred bucks for it, anyway...

...

Somebody texted this to me.
I wanted to give him my reply...
But I was too afraid of what he'll think.
Well..
Hope you get to read this...
2 things you love about me:
- Your smile
- Your butt..XP
2 things you hate about me:
- You fooled me
- You like too many girls... :(
2 messages you like to tell me:
- Please be genuinely nice to me...
- I hope you realize how much I love you...
2 words to describe me:
- my 100% perfect boy
- mesmerizing
1 nickname you like to call me:
- My angel...

I'll give tell you something that would definitely tell you how much I've fallen for this guy:
My pc has this alarm that tells you if there's an incoming phone call.
I can disregard it,
but I don't,
because I'm still hoping that he'll call me..
Because he used to be the one who disrupts my net time...
And I always answer his phone calls...
WAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Chico's right.
It's my problem now.
I have to help myself.
And I will...

Hayhay...
I miss Mama Bear and her words of faggotry...
I miss Steffy Foo and her slaps of "love"...
I miss Gise and her hyphaluting words...
I miss SaGaD...

:(