Insomia...

I haven't been sleeping right lately...
I would just lie down,
Face the ceiling...
And stare at it until the sun rises.

Because of my insomia...
I got the chance to reflect on a lot of things...
Some fun...
Others deep.

I was flipping channels when I caught sight of Bo Sanchez' face.
It took me a ahile to realize...
Oh yeah. He now has a TV show.

So I was watching Kerygma TV,
Hoping it will make me fall asleep.
It didn't do the job,
Because I started to listen to Bo and reflect on what he was saying.

I realized that I've been to busy with other things
When I should've spent my time with the Lord.
Before summer began, I promised myself to make time for the Lord and Church.
And I wasn't able to fulfill that promise.
So I said to myself:
No more excuses. Do what you gotta do.

Another topic.

I have a pretty pathetic story on my "teenage romance".
I like guys...
And those guys that I like...
Like other girls.
Worse,
Those girls are my friends.

All my life...
I have been passing those guys
Because I don't want the friendship to be ruined.
I don't want to lose a friend because of some guy that I'll probably only have a month's worth of a relationship with.

But lately...
I've noticed that all my friends get their man
While I sit in the backseat...
And watch them with the man I like.

Do you have any idea how frustrating that is?!?!?!
I thought I was gonna lose my noukschlab image...
Well I was wrong.

I just hope I find myself...
BEfore I completely lose my mind.