Almost Suicidal...

Wanna know why the title is so?
Let me give you a few reasons.
Then maybe you'll feel the same way.

You know that thing I said about not passing Ateneo?
I was wrong.
Well, sort of.
I'm waitlisted.
I think its more embarrasing.
What the hell are they trying to say?
I'm almost their type?
It's like one of my damn wishes in the wish list.
I was going to meet John Cena for the RAW tour,
but I think it won't happen anymore...
This sucks.
Damn them!!!
Damn them all!!!
Oh well...

Here's another one:
I haven't slept decently since Thursday night because of projects.
I've been studying until my eyes are beyond recognition.
I've spent my whole Monday on our friggin' investi.
I feel like my brain is going to explode.
I went to Kim's house to try and finish it.
I had to smell burning gas, get burnt, and still it isn't finished.
I also had to finish the PROSEC project that same night.
I asked to be fetcxhed around 11 pm.
I was so tired.
I didn't need anyone scolding me.
But my parents did.
Damn, they were on a roll!
They were going on and on about my studies and everything else that concerns me.
And my mom told me to sleep while inside the car!
Whadaf***?!?!?!
And the song was timing too.
It was Nobela by Join the Club.
"Ngumiti kahit na napipilitan,
kahit na sinasadya
Mo akong masaktan..."
I had to hold back the tears.
My father even had the nerve that I was only socializing there.
How can he say that?!?!?!
I'm his friggin' daughter for crying out loud!!!

I was literally on the verge of breaking down,
but my angel of a brother saved the day.
He had no classes that day, so he was already awake watching TV.
I lost all the drive to live.
Before, I had cheerful goodbyes.
But now, I just said "aalis na ako."
Then, my brother ran after me and hugged me.
"Ingat ka ate." Then he kissed me...
Awww...