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Friday, June 30, 2006

Crying...

It's only three weeks,

And I already cried.

Damn.

I hate this feeling.

Why did you have to tell me?
I was scared to find out...
Because I feel the same way.

It would've been fine...
But you're taken.

You have no idea how much that hurts me.

I'm trying not to think about it.
But I can't.
I can't stop thinking about you.
I feel so stupid.

I know it can never be...
But I still hope.


FUCK.
I've never written about a guy before.
See how much you affect me?

FUCK.
I don't want this feeling anymore.
Coz I know it will only hurt me.

FUCK.
I wanna stop crying...
But I can't.

Thursday, June 29, 2006

Overdue...






It's been three weeks...

This is the only time I'm able to blog.

What an overdue post.

Actually I tried to blog earlier, butit wouldn't save...

I also blogged coz someone asked me to change his picture...

Anyway.
Here's the post.

College isn't what everyone said.
No culture shock.
No dramatic changes.
No nothing.
It was a liberated highschool... with boys in my case.

I belong to the FAC section.
We're FACers.

Most of them are good kids...

Some are just nasty.

Sometimes you'd think why they look so nice....

Oh... and I'm the VP.
Would you believe?

And I'm the only girl officer...

Not that it matters.

Next thing:

Boys.

No, I' not boy crazy...
It's just that we have 20 boys and only 12 girls.
I've been in an all-girl school for 12 years...
So blame me if I feel weird?

Anyway...
Pictures.
I don't know where the pictures will be posted...
So bear with me.

Uhm...

Unang Hirit went to BEDA.
Saw Drew again...
He remembered me...
Haaaayyy.... (dreamy look).
Saw Bamboo perform.
Hottie Bamboo.
Hottie Ira Cruz.

BEDA Pep rally.
Rivermaya.

NCAA OPENING CEREMONIES.
Fun.

So...
That's my three weeks of college.

Ain't it fun?
( I dunno...)

Oh...
And by the way....

I SO MISS SAGAD!!!
NO ONE CAN EVER REPLACE YOU GUYS!!!
I MISS YOU GUYS SO MUCH!!!

So there.

End.

Saturday, June 24, 2006

Post...






Now this is the post...
But I'l still put pics in..

So...
Anyway.

College.

It's not as what all the people were saying to me when I was in high school.

I wasn't overwhelmed,
nervous,
scared,
or whatever feeling that is I'm supposed to feel.

IT WAS JUST SCHOOL.

Next topic:
The FACers.
My section.
I love them!
As in!

Love the gals...

Love the guys...

Most of them at least..

So there...

I'll post more when I get the chance...

Thursday, June 22, 2006

Pictures...






Pictures first, post later.

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Interrupted...

Wow...
I've gone 6 days without blogging!

I never thought I'd gone that far without having a breakdown.
So many things happened since college started...

But my brother is nagging me about the computer.

So I have to type the real post...
Maybe on Saturday...

I hope so.

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Disappointed...

It's my birthday today.
A lot of things happened...

My new blockmates greeted me...

My old friends didn't.


It makes me wonder if they really are my friends...

Anyway...

I'll post more tomorrow...

My brother needs the pc badly...

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Steph...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPH!!!

Thursday, June 08, 2006

Moments...

It was my mom's birthday yesterday.
We went to mass...
Ate breakfast...
Bought rice...
Went to Casa Milan...
Even had a foot spa session!
(Now my footsies are so much smoother!)
We went to the grocery store to buy Coke and ice cream.
I was very girly that day because I was wearing a pink skirt and a pink blouse...
In short,
I wasn't in the usual "tomboy" look.
I've been going to that grocery store for the longest time,
But this is the only time I looked like a girl.
And this bagger that i had a crush on never gave me a second glance.
I know what you think: "What? A bagger?!?!?!"
Well, that bagger is actually the son of the owner.
He also plays lead guitar in his band
(talk about stalker effect... hehehe)
Anyway,
Now that he saw me all dressed up,
He was staring at me the whole time he was bagging the stuff
(even dropped the 1.5 coke on his foot..)
He even offered to help me put it in the car...(kilig effect!)

That is a kind of moment that I've been longing for.
That's one moment that I felt special...
(imagine a hot guy opening the door for you)

We even had "the look back" as he entered the store and as I left...

haaayyy....

Wonder if that happens again?

It probably won't...

But if it would...

I hope it will happen with a guy that I like...

And hopefully that guy likes me back.

Note:
My classes start on June 13, so I probably won't be able to post as often...

Thursday, June 01, 2006

Illusions...

Sometimes,
I don't even see the point why I try to get along with people.

I know in my heart that I can manage by myself.
I also know that I will always be true to myself.

With that...
I also know that I am true to others.

But lately...
It seems that all that truth is just an illusion.

I was brought up in the best of places,
Taught by the best people,
Given the best things,
Experienced the best memories...

But still,
I am not a princess.

I am not a lady who curtsies,
I am not a lady who stops herself from laughing too loud.
I am not a lady who never always does as she is told.
I am not a lady who doesn't mess up.
I am not a lady who always has grace.
I am not a lady who doesn't get mad.
I am not a lady who is perfect.

Yes, I live in a life of milk and honey...
Where everyone is happy,
And everything seems perfect.

But I am not like them.
I am not like those perfect people.
They force me to live a perfect life,
When I choose to make mistakes and be normal.

Now...
All of them think I live a Primera life...
While I am not.

Now they think that i have fallen from grace...
Wen I was never with grace.

I just wish they didn't think of me like that...

For they were disillusioned.

When I never meant for it to be like that.

I showed my true self.

I was never unreal.

I'm just a peddler...

Forced to live a princess' life.

I hope you understand...

I never wanted this.

Don't worry...

I'll do everything to change.

So you will be trapped in your own illusions again.

And you will approve of me again.


Can You Open My Safe?
1st Number:
It\\\'s part of my pin code in my cel..
2nd Number:
It\\\'s VERY OBVIOUS and BORING... but disarranged...
3rd Number:
They are always in default pin code numbers... Now if you don\\\'t get this you\\\'re not only stupid... you\\\'re clueless... HAHA. Peace mehn.
Enter Combination:
1st Number
2nd Number
3rd Number