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Thursday, April 27, 2006

Insomia...

I haven't been sleeping right lately...
I would just lie down,
Face the ceiling...
And stare at it until the sun rises.

Because of my insomia...
I got the chance to reflect on a lot of things...
Some fun...
Others deep.

I was flipping channels when I caught sight of Bo Sanchez' face.
It took me a ahile to realize...
Oh yeah. He now has a TV show.

So I was watching Kerygma TV,
Hoping it will make me fall asleep.
It didn't do the job,
Because I started to listen to Bo and reflect on what he was saying.

I realized that I've been to busy with other things
When I should've spent my time with the Lord.
Before summer began, I promised myself to make time for the Lord and Church.
And I wasn't able to fulfill that promise.
So I said to myself:
No more excuses. Do what you gotta do.

Another topic.

I have a pretty pathetic story on my "teenage romance".
I like guys...
And those guys that I like...
Like other girls.
Worse,
Those girls are my friends.

All my life...
I have been passing those guys
Because I don't want the friendship to be ruined.
I don't want to lose a friend because of some guy that I'll probably only have a month's worth of a relationship with.

But lately...
I've noticed that all my friends get their man
While I sit in the backseat...
And watch them with the man I like.

Do you have any idea how frustrating that is?!?!?!
I thought I was gonna lose my noukschlab image...
Well I was wrong.

I just hope I find myself...
BEfore I completely lose my mind.

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Bleed...

I'm aloong with you tonight
Everything just feels so right
The place, the time, everything...
But I know there is one thing missing.

Why can't you see that I'm here?
I'm right beside you...
And yet you still think about her.

You take me everywhere.
I'm always with you.
And yet you always miss her.

She's never with you.
She's always far.
Can't you see she's cheating?
Can't you see her lies?
OR are you truly blinded by her face?

It hurts me to see you cry
A man like you...
Shattered by a girl like her.

I stay with you.

I cry for you.

I bleed for you.

I protect you from harm.
I shield you from pain.
I get cut... I bleed.
But it doesn't matter to me
As long as you're safe.

I'm always here.
I never leave you.
But you never see it.

I don't want to get mad.
But it frustrates me to see
That it will never be the way I want it.
It can never be you and me.

So here I am, allowing you.
Fine, go ahead.
Run after her.
Just remember,
When you get hurt, when you bleed...

I cry.
I bleed.

Remember,
You can always come back.
I will always be here.
Waiting for you.

This night sky is perfect.
Everything is in place.
Only one thing is missing.
You.

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

Eavesdropping...

I suddenly realize how easy it is to hear our neighbor...
But I didn't mean to hear it...
Any of it...
If given the choice,
I would've put on earplugs.
I didn't even want to hear a sound from them.

I never knew my neighbor.
all I know is that he is a friend of my friend,
And he has his girlfriend/ wife/ live-in partner with him.
Anyway...
Around 1 in the afternoon,
I heard the girl crying
And she keeps telling the man to stop.
I was goint to call the police,
I thought the man was abusing her...
When I heard her say..
"No... don't stop now... ooohhh... aahhhh... hmmmm... yes! YES! YES!"
...
...

...

...

Oh my gosh.
They were having their afternoon...
uhmmm...
thingy.

Golly gee.
NOw,
JTC is on my cd player and the volume is on 10.

I can't believe it.
To make things worse,
I was goint to hang my towel outside,
When I saw their window...
...wide open...
... no curtains...
... and them...
... doing the deed.

...

Scandalous.

Speaking of scandals,
I had another one...
here...
in our subdivision.

I never really knew anyone from our street,
And I plan to keep it that way.
But lately,
People are starting to know my name...
...and my life.

My relationship with men are always quiet.
I had no idea that the one guy that I never thought would tell
Suddenly decides to tell our past to everyone he knows in our street.
I don't really know if he told...
Or if his friends did...

I'll show them.

Now...
I have no idea how they see me now.
Before,
I was the mysterious gorgeous (that's what they said) chubby girl...
Now,
I could be a desperate wanna be...
a hopeless romantic chuva...

ARGGHHH!!!!

Who ever told them will face me!!!

I'll show you!!!

I'll show you....

Next time...

YOu'll be gossiping about me...
And a hot stud I'll be bringing home.

How about that for a scandal?

To the person who's been telling stuff about me...

Get a life.

Peace mehn.

Monday, April 24, 2006

Wishes...

I haven't been online lately.
Part because I've got nothing to say,
Part because I have no net load...

Anyway..

I've got something to say now...

I never thought that my wishes would come true
I never even hoped for it...
But it turns out that wishes do come true...

Oh, and my Prosec letter came in today.
It was a good picker upper...

Back to the wishes.

I was never really a lucky girl...
Never won in raffles...
I just just wasn't lucky.

But lately,
It seems like God has been sniling on me...
Sure, I've been having problems,
But I always find a way out of it...
And I have received so many blessings in a short amount of time...

I feel so happy...
Because I haven't been in the best condition for quite a time,
And this really turns my frowbn upside down.

Thank you.
Thank you for everything.

Oh...
And Alexa...
I'll miss you friend...:D

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Hang...

I've got a friend...

You know who you are...

I know you got problems...

Just hang in there...

Help will come...

Pray to God.

He always listens.

And you got me.

Even if i can't help you literally,

I'm always here to stay.

Love you friend...

Monday, April 17, 2006

Stuff...

I have been deprived of the net for 2 weeks.
BUT IT FEELS LIKE AN ETERNITY!!!

I gave it that title because I want to talk about sooo many stuff...

First of all...
CAN EVERYONE PLEASE DROP THE SUBJECT OF POSERS!!!!
I was mad.
Like Mrs. Benitez said before, I let my emotions talk... not my mind.
And it's my effing blog!
Please don't dictate what and what I shouldn't post in it.
So please don't talk about it like it's Watergate...
The Philippines has loads of problems....
Don't busy yourselves with mine...

Next topic.
Kids.
NO, I don't have any...
But my two nephews came by two weeks ago...
And they were just the cutest things!
I realized...
I wnna have kids too...
BUT NOT NOW.
maybe tomorrow.
JOKE.
HAHA.

The other thing I wanna talk about...
Is Puerto..
I got to scratch off one more thing from my wish list!
I went back to Puerto last week..
And this time,
I went with the whole family- even my father!
It's my dad's first vacation... ever.
You see,
Papa always had to work...
Now,
I think he had a really good time...
especially because everything was FREE!!
HAHA...

Last thing:
Love at first sight.
It's never true.
So to that person who said he had love at first sight with me...
Better get your eyes checked.
You might need glasses.
Or a reality check.
That I just don't like you.

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

College...

Today I went to my cousin's place for the day...
Nothing to do really, just wanted to unwind with my cuz... hi Maro!
So there... we went to Megamall...
Ate at Sbarro.. (loved the Baked Ziti!)
Even saw Claudine Baretto... (is that the right spellng? haha.)

I really had a lot of fun..

But in all the meetings that I had with the clan lately...
There was always the topic...
COLLEGE.

I always get annoyed or irritated.
Fine.
I get it.
I;m not as good as you, you, or you.
I'm NEVER GOOD ENOUGH.
I'm NEVER THE BEST.
I GET IT.

So should you...
But no...
The elders think that I'm as good- no better than them.
Well.
NEWSFLASH:
NOT!!!

They've been at it since 6 am until I went home.

I was about to explode..
When my mom said:
"Kaya naman ni Macrise yan, I know she can do it!"
Wow.
I was touched.
My mom actually believed in me.
And my dad second the motion!
"Oo nga, alam ko na kaya mo yan anak!"

I was suddenly filled with inspiration.
Finally, I said to myself.
"Hey Mac, youll never know, they might be right!"

So from now on,
I promise myself,
I will do my best.
After all,
College IS my last chance.

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

Clarify...

I just want to say...

To those who are asking...

I WON'T SAY THE NAMES!!!

Yes, I'm mad...

But I'm not delirious enough to say the names on the net...

Let them guess...

Don't care if you get mad...

I'll never see you again anyway.

Besides, if you don't get my point- that's coz you weren't given that name.

If that name was yours, I wouldn't take it from you.

I expected you to do the same.

But you didn't.

So if you're mad,

I'M NOT SORRY.

It's just that I demand respect- because I give you respect.

SO DEAL WITH IT.

Monday, April 03, 2006

Posers...

I hate them.

Especially when they take ove OUR THING.

Those bitches.

I just hope you don't know my blog.

You probably don't.

I know you also went to the grad ball...

But WE were the ones given the title of GRAD BALL GIRLS.

As in Jay Jay, Louie, Pepe, Rocky and Lakan called us the Grad Ball Girls ion Aruba.

Okay.

So deal with it.

Get your own f*cking name.

Since you're all good friends...

And your kada is so tight.

GET YOUR OWN NAME BITCH!

hhhaaayyyy....

I HATE POSERS

Saturday, April 01, 2006

Earrings...

No, I didn't buy new earrings...
Nor will I tell the whole world about my new earrings...
Just read...
And you'll see why.
HAHA.

I haven't been sleeping right for the past two days.
It's not that I'm complaining,
It's just that it's something new:
My parents letting me stay out until morning...
HAHA.

Anyway...
I have these pair of earrings...
That everythime I wear them,
I get to meet and/or spend time with the people I want to spend time with.
Example:
Join the Club,
Sugarfree...
and...
THE BLOOMFIELDS!!!

Golly gee...
now I call them my groupie earrings...
funny.

So...
Thursday night:
My parents allowed me to go to Aruba.
With Kim and her family of course...
We saw Elle there too...
We thought that the Bloomfields were on at 9 pm,
So I told my mom to fetch me around midnight,
but lo and behold...
Blooomfields started at 11!
I downed the whole martini just to forget about what will happen to me after that night
(a whole lot of sh*t)
We had a blast!
I know Kim would never forget that birthday with...
And so would I!

Danced with JJ...
Even got a kiss...
(it was actually a beso-beso, but let me dream on...)
Said hi...
They remembered us...

NOw we have a name...
GRAD BALL GIRLS!
cutie...
(pending name for band)
haha....

When they finished at 1,
I found my phone...
with 36 missed calls...
and 18 messages.

But they still didn't get mad...
I fell asleep at 2.
Woke up at 4...
for my college orientation.
With 2 martinis still buzzing in my head.
Good thing there was a nice guy there...
Thanks Tolits...

I went to Kim's house...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
Tricco was there...
Duh...
Boyfriend.
MaSteKi was complete.
I felt a little noukschlab-ish...
But I ignored it...

Again...
I got home at 2..
Woke up at 4 (AGAIN)
so...
I have the biggest eyebags today...
And also THE BIGGEST SMILE!!!

So...
I better end this...
Steph wants me to stop...
hehe...
I'll be asleep within 5 minutes after finishing this post.

LAST NOTE!
BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM!
GRAD BALL GIRLS!!!
GROUPIES!!!

... I want another bloomfields night...
...hope the groupie earrings will work...

END.


Can You Open My Safe?
1st Number:
It\\\'s part of my pin code in my cel..
2nd Number:
It\\\'s VERY OBVIOUS and BORING... but disarranged...
3rd Number:
They are always in default pin code numbers... Now if you don\\\'t get this you\\\'re not only stupid... you\\\'re clueless... HAHA. Peace mehn.
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